NOC(HE)TURNAL SOPHI(E)STICATION

Sucks hairy donkey balls.

I’m just gonna weigh myself at the end of June. I’ve been eating like crazy, I have this ravenous hunger, which can only mean that mother nature is paying me a visit soon.
Fuck her in the ass.

I also deactivated my Facebook, too many dumb people. It’s lonely here and I like it.

I want to get out of here.

I’ve lost 6 pounds so far. I’m gonna celebrate with a chick fil a southwest grill salad (only 350 calories) cause I just got paid as well…

The following events took place between 2:20am and 2:30 am.

I was dreaming about two babies and I think they were boys and I’ve been dreaming about this lately. And my boyfriend’s pregnant sister was there also. But all of a sudden, I woke up and my dogs were barking like crazy. It scared me but that’s not what woke me up. It was the noise. I thought someone was bashing the walls and it made the ground shake. To be honest with you it sounded like footsteps. I was too scared to get up and check because I remember someone had left and I didn’t know if they came back yet and locked the door. So I thought the door was unlocked and that scared me even more because I didn’t know what time it was and I didn’t have my contacts on. But sophie’s bark …. It was so panicked..she was barking so loudly it got hoarse and her bark was all high pitched… I hope it was a dumpster truck. But do they really come that early? and were my dogs the only ones barking? and why was the whole fucking building shaking? and why didn’t any car alarms go off? I just lay there and listened to whatever it was shake the ground four more times and everything fell silent. Welcome to the twilight zone.

I’ve lost another pound!!!! yay!
97 to go!!! as my boyfriend likes to say…duck yeah!

I weighed myself this morning and I’ve lost another pound!!

Woo hoo!!! Party naked!!! (not really)

Gonna go work out after work today. So motivated!!!!

98 pounds to go. :)

So I weighed myself this morning and I lost one pound!!! Yay!!

I could have lost 2 but I got a little lazy after the second day and I didn’t count calories after Thursday :(

Worked out for 40 min this morning and I feel brand new ..it’s good for back pain and stress.

I’m still a size 16 and have 99 lbs to go!

This whole writting it out thing works wonders for motivation. I will never be tempted to say that I quit.

I let myself break my diet for my birthday since I pretty much would have had to refuse the birthday cake and the delicious pozole. I also don’t want to restrict myself too much or I’ll get overwhelmed and feel deprived.

But I really am upset that I haven’t stuck to my workout routine. X-( I definitely have to work out tomorrow and I will not let myself be convinced by my boyfriend to sleep in an extra hour. NO SIR!!!!

I need to buy a scale this weekend and weigh myself at the beginning of the week. I sure do hope I have at least lost a pound by Monday.

I’ve been a bad girl… :-\

Who knew I could eat breakfast, morning snack, lunch, and afternoon snack for under 750 calories and still have 700 calories left over. xD

I burned 400 calories on the elliptical machine today. My thighs are on fire!!!

I’m gonna be turning 21 on Wednesday and I realized that I’m getting closer to 30. And I am in shock. I don’t want to be old and fat. I don’t want to spend the era of my 20’s all flappy and jiggly, wearing oversized shirts and size 16 pants. I want to be sexy, and make heads turn, twice! I understand my body will not look perfect when I am done reshaping it. It will still have faded strecth marks and celullite, but those are just battle scars and a constant reminder of who I was and who I will never be. Losing weight sucks and keeping it off sucks even more but I refuse to be the death of me.

Today is day one of counting calories and getting up at 5:30 am to go burn 400 calories daily before work. I am aiming for 5 pounds at a time until I lose 100 pounds. I want to lose 2 pounds a week, 1 lb at the minimum. And I want to eat about 1500 calories a day so it evens out to about 1100 daily. It’s all or nothing. Here I go!

There’s This vending machine at work with sandwiches and hot pockets and noodles and you can use your debit card. Once you swipe it you have like 10 sec to pick what you want….but….you have to align it right or you can’t open the slot to get the food item . And I can’t do it!!! Itsplaying games with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!